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(I posted this topic at first in a reply to NedFlanders question but I think that thread might be too old. )I was Googling almost this same topic when I came across this board. I am much older than you but I found myself asking almost the same question. And that having been around long enough with plenty of varied sexual experiences with different women in different situations I have never had anything close to any homosexual experiences. I lost my virginity when I was 16 almost 17. And whenever Ive ever been approached like that or actually hit on by a dude or something I pretty much have always been like thanks but "Im cool man". Its not something I would actually want to do. But where Im confused is I get off to Shemales online. The first time I can recall getting off to this stuff was after progressing from reading Playboy at 12 to Penthouse and advancing on to Hustler around 21 where eventually I noticed they started having Shemale advertisements and Pictures in the back. Even Active Duty in a Unit with some hardcore dudes I can remember guys clowning like a buddy telling our E-7 look there goes your girlfriend pointing at a shemale in some magazine and everybody laughing, but Im also thinking damn shes kinda sexy in those fishnets and platform high heels and garters and stuff(or whatever sexy lingerie she was wearing which they always are). I had buddy's that liked the big muscular wrestling chick Chyna when she posed in Playboy but to me she was disgusting or ugly(Especially since Ive seen her on VH1s Surreal Life show with big muscular veiny feet) I realize I love little women with pretty lil toes I can suck and sexy red nail polish. .. But the key is having everything soft and no muscles clearly defined. But even in genetic women like Whitney Houston it turns me off when I can see her bicep muscle especially and shes crackhead skinny. I like really soft women usually, small and Tara Reids size or womanly like Angelina Jolie. Although I really dont like the way Hollywood chicks are all super thin now or the ones who look like they work out every day. I like real girl next door types or even in the mature types I like women not Barbie dolls or weightlifters just regular women who you could meet in real life. Im doing a lot of writing because I really want everybody here to get a good picture hopefully so they can give me some good feedback without misunderstanding me. Because I wrote the same question basically on Yahoos Gay Bi Lesbian or Trans gendered question board and got some helpful opinions but I figure the better you explain the situation the better you can understand and feedback. But heres what I have up on the Yahoo boards "Does getting off on Internet shemale or transsexual porn make U bi-curious. I have always really loved women; I only have fantasy's or romantic interest in genetic women i.e. thinking of holding or kissing or one day settling down with. I finished my time in the Army (13F) got divorced and have been stuck in my parents house recovering from an injury for the last year. Only going out to the hospital once or twice a month. Ive found myself frequently enjoying trans gendered porn. Being reasonably intelligent I realize we as human beings can get off to many different things and dont have to label ourselves accordingly such as I also get off watching hen-tai, or anime, BDSM, zoo-sex, watersports, and many other things I'm pretty certain I would never seek out or actually do in the real world. (I know I can stick my thing in a pie and get off but I wouldnt call myself pie-curious. ) I believe posing this topic to such an open mixed and knowledgeable community as exist here I can get a good understanding of how different people see this. com members: Another thing for me is the proliferation of Shemale stuff everywhere online It seems like theres more Shemale Porn than anything else nowadays. If I go to any frees site theres always these links or pop ups with Shemale sex. If I go to popular Top Gallery Post like greenguy or something and Im getting off on interracial porn there might be 50 free pics or movies clips which I browse through pretty quick before I have to go somewhere else to find more links to free interracial clips but then half of those are the same ones I just watched with only a few new or different clips. The same with Latin chicks, theres a lot of Asian chicks but then you eventually end up getting the links or pop ups to the Asian Lady-boys and your back to square 1. I know this is a lot and it sounds crazy but being stuck inside the house is really messing with my head. (Although I Can tell them about some girls and drunken nights out and share some pretty funny stories and laugh and stuff theyre still my parents who I cant even curse in front of). Since Ive been home I havent really talked to anybody cool, just nurses and my doctor in that quick hospital type chit chat. I never IM, Ive never been in a chat room and although I think I know where I stand I just really wonder what other peoples opinion would be. I just wonder is it possible for a straight heterosexual Mans-man/Macho, badass type which I have always considered myself to be, to think a she male is sexy or hot. & If I can think shes is hot or banging with a dope body or crazy eyes or whatever; is it gay or bi-curious to like watching her get freaky. To watch her shaking her phatass or squeezing up her big titties. For me its a lot of things really, and Im trying to finish this but I think also that some of the crazy freaky sex is so dirty or taboo that its erotic, its hot. I know gay people can be cool and I dont have nothing against no one but I dont think Im gay or even bi-curious. For example I wouldnt kiss a dog but when I watch a hot chick "kissing" a dog online its hot but I would never kiss that chick in real life or even drink from the same beer shes drinking out of. Can You guys add me into this discussion and give me your thoughts on this.